Sissy slave ready to be trained!

I have some (pretty blatant) fetishes, as you'd expect from a sissy slave {write me if you want to know which ones} and I've long had the desire to be educated properly...in a messy, painful, hard way! Unfortunately, none of my (very few) sex partners have used me really hard, let alone really educated me... so the will is there on my part, I would be willing to let myself be completely subjugated and suffer in the process... but the right master is missing, ): therefore my question: does anyone (preferably well-hung) want to train me with the help of pain, humiliation, BDSM, humiliation, coercion and bondage and thus turn me into a willing, obedient hardcore sissy slave? (please please please please)🙇🏼‍♂️🥵